there is a chance that i won’t get this scholarship. i am going to cry because i need this so much right now omg

i need to do well on my interview and i cant talk to anyone about it because i feel like i am just annoying everyone with every emotion ugh. i dont know what to do i just need to vent and sleep and hope for the best.

but if i hope for the best i will be disappointed if i do not get the scholarship. ugh i need a job but i cant have it during school because i want to focus on schooling. ugh i suck at interviews. how do i make people like me? ugh i genuinely did all i could in school and i tried being a good person (hopefully). i know people say bad things happen to good people and good things happen to bad people but i am neither of the two. i am not good nor bad but i work hard. isnt that enough? i guess not if i cant get anything right. ugh i am so frustrated. why do i have to deal with this? why cant i be one of those people who doesnt care about anything? oh yeh because i want to make my family proud of me and others to like me.

my parents gave me all they could. i just want to help them to show that i care and now that i am going into uni i feel more responsibility.

i dont know what to do because i want to be helpful and not useless anymore.

i dont know anymore