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gallowhill:

Ann Hamilton’s books used in Indigo Blue and Tropos performances/installations

Indigo Blue, 1991

The figure in performance sat reading the books back to front, clearing each page, by a gesture of wetting a Pink Pearl eraser with saliva, rubbing out a line of text, and collecting the rubber eraser crumbs in a line parallel to the uppermost edge of the book and the front of the desk.

Tropos, 1993

…With an electric burner in hand, (she) burned each line from the book, as it was read, causing the air to fill with acrid smoke.

(via prowlings)

(Source: GIVNCVRLOS, via bonsoir-lune)

havent been on here for a while. IM BACK BITCHES!!

there is a chance that i won’t get this scholarship. i am going to cry because i need this so much right now omg

i need to do well on my interview and i cant talk to anyone about it because i feel like i am just annoying everyone with every emotion ugh. i dont know what to do i just need to vent and sleep and hope for the best.

but if i hope for the best i will be disappointed if i do not get the scholarship. ugh i need a job but i cant have it during school because i want to focus on schooling. ugh i suck at interviews. how do i make people like me? ugh i genuinely did all i could in school and i tried being a good person (hopefully). i know people say bad things happen to good people and good things happen to bad people but i am neither of the two. i am not good nor bad but i work hard. isnt that enough? i guess not if i cant get anything right. ugh i am so frustrated. why do i have to deal with this? why cant i be one of those people who doesnt care about anything? oh yeh because i want to make my family proud of me and others to like me.

my parents gave me all they could. i just want to help them to show that i care and now that i am going into uni i feel more responsibility.

i dont know what to do because i want to be helpful and not useless anymore.

i dont know anymore